Personally Different 

I generally do not share snippets of my own life in my blog, they are pieces of fiction. The narrative or poetic persona is not me, but today on New Years I want to talk about myself and some thoughts which I want to know if you, my readers, struggled with as well? 

Have you ever felt you shouldn’t have said something which you did? I am not talking about words that’d hurt someone or passing obscenities or being judgemental. What I mean is, something which was inside you and you wanted it to be always within you, sheltered and at a silly moment you let it out. It could be a part of your personality which you wanted to remain exclusively for you or an idea protected by the skull of your brain or anything at all. Something pristine only for you. 

Have you ever been afraid of too much goodness? Because it is not immense darkness which shuts your eyes but excess light. 

Do you expect a lot from the coming year? Do you think it will be better than ’16? Perhaps, we can be hopeful. My 2016 wasn’t bad as such, so I don’t know how 2017 would be. However, I don’t know why I have this feeling that  it will be nice. I really hope so. 

I don’t want to be a normal person but I am ordinary. Though, I have to cross the barricades I have created around myself. And then maybe, maybe one day I will no longer be ordinary. 

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18 Comments Add yours

  1. colinandray says:

    By virtue of the fact that you are questioning yourself, and inviting perspectives from others, I would suggest that you are far from ordinary. Whether “normal” is good or bad is very subjective and I (for one) have no clear indicators of “normal”.

    Celebrate your uniqueness, and acknowledge that there has never been, nor ever will be, another person identical in all your facets of being human. Ordinary? Hardly!

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    1. That’s so sweet of you and I agree there exists no “normal” but sometimes in life literariness of the word ‘normal’ hits you, and you are captured in the labyrinthine structure of the term. Self-doubt emanates from that. But I agree with everything you said. Thank you for the comment.

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      1. colinandray says:

        Life is all choices, and if you are captured in a “labyrinthine structure”, then that has been your choice (consciously or otherwise). Breaking out is no different from ignoring conventions, or expressing your being in other ways. 🙂

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      2. Yeah, you’re right. It’s wonderful to read what you write

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  2. aakakg says:

    Real heroes exist among us, walk among us, and they are ordinary people – they just have a higher sense of purpose. Being ordinary, normal is absolutely perfect as long as one’s aware of his/her purpose.

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    1. Yeah, I know. The article sort of embodies a morose tone and borderline pessimistic. Knowing the purpose of life is hard. Period.
      Thank you for taking out time to read and share your viewpoint. 🙂

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  3. colinandray says:

    Glad you like my writings. Being “of later years”, I like to believe that I have learned quite a bit about life, and how we fit into it! Of course I am also still learning! 🙂

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    1. It still feels nice to understand the wisdom of “of later years.”

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  4. rehmanjafar says:

    “I don’t want to be a normal person but I am ordinary”

    You are normal person but I don’t think you are ordinary or let me ask you that how do we even go on and define the term ordinary? You are different and this post kind of proves it. How many others are thinking like you do? How many others have the same ambition(s) like you have? Does that make you ordinary or not?

    Maybe you are ordinary but I believe you aren’t. I know it is hard to differentiate between normal and ordinary but are you getting my point?

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    1. Yeah, I get what you are trying to say. It’s empowering. Ordinary and normal are perhaps different but I guess what I wrote was not measured in terms of that essentially but I get what you’re trying to say.

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      1. rehmanjafar says:

        Believe me someone reading this conversation would be like – Damn, what’s wrong with these people? Kehna kya chahte hai?

        Ona serious note- Good luck.

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      2. Hahahahahhahahaha YEAH I KNOW! ROFL

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  5. Avineet Kaur says:

    👍

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  6. It might be too much later to comment. But I was just checking what all have I missed. I know this blog for years now. Just changed my blog.
    So yeah there are some things which I will not share to anyone. They make me who I am. Nothing wrong about it but just can’t share.
    And too much of goodness is kind of not for this world. This is what I feel. You should know to be mean sometimes for good intentions though. Ends can justify the means!
    Best wishes!..
    I hope this year would be different I’m looking forward to it with great expectations. Just moved to Delhi I think that’s start.
    And happy New year 😂😂 it’s late I know… But it’s never too late…

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    1. Happy New Year.
      It is wonderful to know you’ve been visiting my blog perpetually and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
      I agree with what you’ve said here.
      Happy blogging!

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